Dear someone,

I think I'm starting to like you.. I can't be around you, it drives me crazy.

And I have exactly 10 more days before I start my college life again. 

And it will be different.. By that time, I will forget you & my feelings will be changed.

I always afraid of falling in love. Whenever I feels like falling, I will try to stop my heart from growing &

I will step on my feet at the ground and take control of my mind. Be realistic. I don't wanna be fool by love, by a man and losing my insanity to this love sick things.

Hey shawty, Aznizam Baharum HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY. I always pray for your happiness. 

I'm just wishing you and try to be nice to you. Nothing more. Please expect less.. I can see that you're still hoping that maybe we could be together back. But to be honest, I can't see any ways for us to be together again. You're kind and everything. You never stop loving me since the first day we met, in 2008. But I don't love you, no matter how hard I tried. It will never be the same. We're not kid anymore. I hope you can understand.

But I will never forget you.

youth 2012

Love required - COMMUNICATIONS. GIVE AND TAKE. SHARING. COMMITMENTS. & TIME.

Which........... I'm not ready for this, yet

According to my statistics, it shows that,
"IF A MAN IS JOKING, SAID THAT HE LIKES YOU, MORE THAN 10 TIMES.
HE IS NOT JOKING, BELIEVE ME. OBVIOUSLY"
 TRUST ME :)


Basically I met several guys that admit they like me, in a joking kind of way.
I don't take it serious, but personally I can feel the kind of feelings that I doesn't suppose to feel.
I can feel if the feelings is change into something different.


HEY, I KNOW YOU LIKE ME. SO HI HAHA

The funny thing about falling in love,
Is that when Cupid shoots you 
You can’t choose who will you gonna fall in love with. -TristanWilds

Thinking about the time when "I'm in love" before, I wonder...

IS IT ME FALLING IN LOVE OR IS IT ME FEELING STUPID??

I ONCE THINK ABOUT
QUITTING MY STUDY TO FIND A JOB AND MAKE A LOT OF MONEY.
SO I CAN GIVE SOMETHING FOR MY MOM AND ADIK ADIK.
I WANT TO FIX THINGS. I WANT TO GIVE THEM HAPPINESS WHICH
IS I CAN'T BUY OR FIND IT AT ANYWHERE.


IF THE MONEY IS THE PROBLEM, I RATHER QUIT MY STUDY
JUST NOT TO BE A BURDEN THEM.


BUT MORE DEEPER I THINK ABOUT IT,
IT MADE ME REALISE THAT, IT'S BETTER THAT I BE A SUCCESSFUL WOMAN
AND GET A REAL JOB WITH MY DIPLOMA AND MADE THEM PROUD
INSTEAD OF GIVING THEM EVERYTHING THAT MEANS NOTHING.
IF I CAN BE PATIENCE, SURE IT WILL RESULT SOMETHING GOOD
AND MORE MEANINGFULL.


I DON'T KNOW WHAT I THINK.. BUT I JUST WANT TO MAKE THEM HAPPY
IF ONLY I COULD..

4AM
LAYING ON BED

HEARING SOUNDS OF THE POURING RAINS FROM OUTSIDE THE WINDOWS

FEELS THE COLD WINDS TOUCHING YOUR FEETS

SURROUNDED BY FAVORITE PILLOWS

WHILE LISTENING TO FAVORITE SONGS..

EVERYTHING FEELS GOOD.

The story of me having a crush...

This is the story of me having a crush.
I was in high school, and I was 16. I have a big crush with this one boy.
Which is he is my senior. I'm just a girl that he would never notice.
 I didn't put my hope too high.
One day..He accidentally ask me out on a date.
 I was like so super-excited andtelling everyone about it.
 I can't sleep thinking about what I'm gonna wear, and really wants
that date will be perfect with every single aspect. 
And I was a lil NERVOUS + SCARED
about what might he thinks about me...
But... On that day of our day, it turns out into nothing.
I was so stupid and suddenly text him last minutes telling him, that I can't make it..
IT'S BECAUSE I WAS TOO SCAREDDD TOOO SCARED.
Because I never had a date before. It was totally sucks. 
And I swear I regret it until now..
After that day, we didn't talks or text or whatever..
Everything went so bad..


So after realizing about how stupid I am for letting go 
what I really want when I get it, and end up feeling so stupid, I stand up for myself and never wasted every chance that comes.I would never let my feelings take control on me, never again..